When M first died, Mr. G and I attended a local support group. We went every month. But slowly, we trickled into not every month, and now, the last time we went was March.
Being pregnant again, I really feel like I want to go. There are so many anxieties and feelings that come along with this. My struggle is that the last few times we have gone, I have felt guilty taking up too much time talking with so many new moms there. I always feel I should let the new moms have the time to talk. I remember so well those first months after M died. They were hell. I clung to the support group like a lifeline.
I know that it's okay for me to go talk and take up a reasonable amount of time. Once I'm there though, and see those moms, I just keep thinking how much they probably need it, the way I did.