I pretty much always think "She'll get her baby.. I'm the only f-up person who doesn't".
It's sorta my woe is me syndrome. But that is with strangers. When friends/co-workers talk to me about their pregnancies and mention lil twinges they feel I freak out and tell them to go to the emergency room ASAP. I always imagine the worst. But when it is just strangers I assume that their pregnancy will be just perfect and mundane like every other person.
I'm just like you. I swing back and forth between the two, totally irrational extremes: Nothing could possibly go wrong with anyone else's pregnancy or something horrible is sure to go wrong with everyone else's pregnancy.
I cannot help myself, I always think something to myself about pregnant women when I see them.....how they make me sick or, I hope everything works out for you....because it didn't for us!
Then again, I stop myself sometimes and think what if she has had a pregnancy loss herself? How do I know she has not? What if she has a miracle baby in her belly?
Its hard for me to see pregnant women any way it goes I guess.
The Stats-
*Dec. 2005* Firstborn son, M, born still at 34 weeks
*Oct. 2006* Early miscarriage
*Dec. 2007* Little girl, A, born alive!!!
*Oct. 2009* Second son, IZ, died during pregnancy at 20 wks. 3 days.
I have no idea what to write after that little chart.
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I pretty much always think "She'll get her baby.. I'm the only f-up person who doesn't".
It's sorta my woe is me syndrome. But that is with strangers. When friends/co-workers talk to me about their pregnancies and mention lil twinges they feel I freak out and tell them to go to the emergency room ASAP. I always imagine the worst. But when it is just strangers I assume that their pregnancy will be just perfect and mundane like every other person.
I'm just like you. I swing back and forth between the two, totally irrational extremes: Nothing could possibly go wrong with anyone else's pregnancy or something horrible is sure to go wrong with everyone else's pregnancy.
OMG I say and think those things too.
I cannot help myself, I always think something to myself about pregnant women when I see them.....how they make me sick or, I hope everything works out for you....because it didn't for us!
Then again, I stop myself sometimes and think what if she has had a pregnancy loss herself? How do I know she has not? What if she has a miracle baby in her belly?
Its hard for me to see pregnant women any way it goes I guess.
Erin, Birdies Mama
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