We have a small room air conditioner in the living room only. It was a warm day today, and by mid afternoon, we decided to flip it on. My husband walked down the hall and started closing doors to the back rooms in order to not waste the cool air. We had a short discussion on whether or not to close A's door as we would probably be going in and out to change her diaper etc. I then asked Mr. g if he closed our bedroom door. He got a somewhat sheepish look on his face and said, "No, M is in there" Of course, he meant M's ashes which sit in a spot made just for him on our dresser.
It was one of those moments when I realized my husband still does miss M, and does have his own little hang ups. He can't close our bedroom door when we are not in there because it feels like shutting M out somehow. I can't get rid of a pregnancy books on natural non medicated birth I got while pregnant with M, even though I will probably never have a natural non medicated birth.