tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5498447762327844508.post2470481915061584104..comments2023-08-21T02:29:13.411-07:00Comments on Broken Heart Diaries: Self-Esteem and Bitternessms. Ghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15263348912679823512noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5498447762327844508.post-89222385132646936002007-08-26T09:20:00.000-07:002007-08-26T09:20:00.000-07:00Wow, I am very interested in the fact that others ...Wow, I am very interested in the fact that others understand and have even felt similiar. It is an aspect of grief that doesn't get talked about much, I think.<BR/><BR/>Monica-I think you hit on something with the hopes and dreams part. I had a lot of identity wrapped up in being M's mom.<BR/><BR/>Beruriah-I honestly think about going further in school so I can move up in position at where I currently work, or something similiar. It's just a lot of school left then, (requires a Masters) and I start to doubt myself...<BR/><BR/>Niobe-Yes, exactly. I remember being in the hospital bed still, already thinking I was the only person this had ever happened to.ms. Ghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15263348912679823512noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5498447762327844508.post-70319489102472618602007-08-24T19:09:00.000-07:002007-08-24T19:09:00.000-07:00I have the same feelings. After Joseph died I que...I have the same feelings. After Joseph died I questioned everything. I think I still do sometimes. Its good to here thought that I'm not the only one.<BR/>~CaroleThe Goddess Ghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14082406024088862566noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5498447762327844508.post-84478502846525189362007-08-24T09:52:00.000-07:002007-08-24T09:52:00.000-07:00Since it's fairly unusual to have a baby die, when...Since it's fairly unusual to have a baby die, when it happens to you, you feel as though you've been singled out for misfortune. It's not one of those things that even seems possible until it happens. And I think that, to some extent, it's the random, almost freakish nature of it, the struck-by-lightning aspect, that makes you question every assumption that you had about the world and how you fit into it.niobehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08315267454529454063noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5498447762327844508.post-64925699808018058142007-08-24T06:16:00.000-07:002007-08-24T06:16:00.000-07:00My life seemed pretty desolate too, and I desperat...My life seemed pretty desolate too, and I desperately wanted (and sometimes still want) to figure out anything else I could do with my life. <BR/><BR/>We lost control in the most horrible way. You've captured so much of my feeling here too, the failures and the sick competitiveness. But in other ways, you do have options and some control. <BR/><BR/>Of course your first hope and need is to have this baby come home with you safely. But beyond that, are your feelings taking on any concrete direction, something you'd actually like to do better than what you're doing now?Beruriahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07171541078529309991noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5498447762327844508.post-5078258921441934662007-08-23T18:15:00.000-07:002007-08-23T18:15:00.000-07:00I feel sorta the same way. I just had so many hop...I feel sorta the same way. I just had so many hopes and dreams for my life as a mother and when it didn't happen I re-evaluated my life. And let me tell you, my life didn't come out well in the evaluation. I have such an intense need to show everyone that I'm as good as they are. That just because my baby died, I can still do everything as well as they can. I have a competitive streak a mile wide and losing Jimmy only made it worse. The sad thing is, if I had him now, I would be the happiest person in the world. Ms. G, I don't think it is unusual to look at your life during the grieving stage and be unsatisfied with it. If you'd like to improve your life, remember that you can. I know it is hard to be empowered to do anything when it seems like you have no control. But you do. And I for one like you!Mrs. Collinshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13572508460850412007noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5498447762327844508.post-26212770353582140212007-08-23T15:27:00.000-07:002007-08-23T15:27:00.000-07:00Grief sure is a tricky thing. Everytime I think t...Grief sure is a tricky thing. Everytime I think that I've made it through or past something, I get my ass kicked. I don't know if I will ever understand it all.<BR/><BR/>Hugs.MBhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10090873170016511220noreply@blogger.com